I’ve been using CARM’s materials regularly, beloved, and as such I thought it appropriate to share brother Matt Slick, founder of CARM’s, testimony. This is just a small excerpt from his testimony, which he details here.
As I concluded my prayer, I became aware that someone “other” was there. Someone else was in the room with us and His attention was focused on me. This someone was not a member of that congregation. But I felt His presence dawning like a sunrise. This person was making Himself known to me in my heart. I somehow knew it was God. It was the Holy Spirit. He came to me slowly, gently, and then in a sudden movement, His Holiness overshadowed me with greatness and I became incapacitated. It was indescribable. He permeated my heart, mind, and soul. He washed over me in a burst of holiness and I was utterly undone. His incredibly deep purity shone upon my soul and I was instantaneously made aware of my utter sinfulness before a Holy and Righteous God. It was a supernatural experience of profound and utter depth. It wasn’t emotionalism. It wasn’t being psyched-out. It was God. I was in the presence of God Himself. I was in the presence of Perfect Holiness….and I knew it!!!
From the very deepest part of my soul, I felt a powerfully new and profound remorse for my sins, for offending God, for being unclean. I was a sinner! My body could not help but let loose a flood of tears of sorrow and guilt. I wept hard. I wept from the depths of my soul in guttural, heaving, moans of confession and brokenness. I was in the presence of incredible Purity, Holiness, and Love.. I was encountering God Himself. and I was a sinner. I could hardly stand to be in the presence of such deeply pure perfection and holiness. It was out of balance and I was profoundly aware of the disparity.
So, there I was, on the ground, sobbing like I’ve never wept in my life. I was a sinner and I knew it. The Holy Lord had revealed Himself to me and the natural result was to realize my own sinfulness. I kept sobbing and heaving out tears upon the floor. They came like a flood. And then.
This may seem unbelievable, but the only way I can explain it is that Jesus Himself manifested right there next to me. He had come to meet me on my knees. It wasn’t as though I could see Him or touch Him. But, He was there. I was aware of His Holy awesome holy presence next to me. It was incredible. It was wonderful and I felt my heart enveloped and lifted by Him. His concern for me was precious and tender. It was marvelous. He enveloped me in His love, His holiness, and His awesome greatness. I knew He was there to forgive me. I knew He loved me. I basked in His presence. I was with Jesus.
Then, while I was kneeling there, utterly absorbed and drifting in the experience of His presence, He moved. He moved toward me and gently entered my heart. Instantly, I physically felt my sin leave me. I felt the sudden and wonderful burst of forgiveness wash over my soul. I was instantly cleansed and born again and with it came the most profound and absolute sense of security of salvation I had ever known. My salvation was in Him. I was forgiven and safe for ever.
Friends, isn’t it amazing that God saves us wretched, rebellious people? We’ve spent our lives storing up wrath for the day of judgement, we drank iniquity, we spit in the face of our maker, we laughed at stories like this one. Then, as radically as our first birth, the cold stony heart is removed and a new one replaces it. God gives the gift of repentance, He breaks the chains of sin, makes out of our broken rotting pieces a new creation. There is nothing in me to boast of, nothing within myself to offer God or man, except this one thing, and it’s all we need, Christ in me. Christ in me, the only redeeming quality I have.
Have you been made into a new creature, dear ones? I love to hear your testimonies, so please feel free to leave them in the comments. If you’re reading this and recognize that none of this describes you, please work through your salvation with fear and trembling. Everyone’s testimony is not the same, yet if there is no change in you, if you are still comfortable with your sin, if you feel no desire to read Gods Word, love of His people, pray and be alone with Him, please examine yourselves to see if you are in the faith. As always, beloved brethren, be good Berean’s and study to show yourselves approved.